Tuesday, 29 July 2008

Elleonore's Last Serenade

listening to: Stacey's Mom - Fountains of Wayne
haha

hmm im thinking of blog titles rite now - notice all the titles are random - and i've decided that for a a period of time starting today i'll name them after girls who were memorable to me. hahaha.
(crappers this is gonna be a long period of time using only girl's names hahhaha)

its a typical day...
haha ... read... eat... lil workout

i got up late today. stupid blanket scared the crap out of me. since its summer i opted for a lighter blanket and it seems to be made of synthetics. as a result static enrgy buildup seems inevitable. thus when the lights are out and i run my hand across the blanket sparks seem to be produced and when its dark. u have a feeling that ure messing with elctricity.
A lil scary wen the opnly light usee is electrical sparks... from ure own blanket.

I wonder since "fart" hahah contains methane. could it be lit up with a spark? so if i happen to accidently fart and a spark generated by my hand combines. Would i like be burnt in my sleep coz of static energy and fart?

hahahaz


i was thinking of starting another blog dedicated to chicks i previously liked hahahah

prolly too invasive for me.

hahahaz

They've Fallen and They Can't Get Up!

I just saw my painting haha, for a splitsecond i was like woah... "what's that?!" and i stared then i remembered it was my painting. Iwas quite shocked it looked so good.

My second birthday gift from nainai!

Meh love u nainai! It's beautiful.


As usual being nainai's critic sometimes...
my cynical side hit in... but this time...
its actually really good, the colours all blend in, not to mention it feels so abstract in a weird sort of way. The woman was just there, she seemed to be one with the background but not a part of it. It really caught my attention.
It is truly maybe one her best pieces and the best thing is...
its mine mwahahaha


ebil!
haha

I'm getting it this Thursday at Shan's party...

funny, i thought those guys hated my guts. Oh well i guess its time for peace haha and i do provoke them sometimes. (Well most of the time xD). It's also Shan's bday so i have to be on my best behaviour. haha. Better watch Naj don't get too much booze in her system... >.<

I keep looking at it now... awesome haha.

Can't wait to get it... and i'm sure i'll get it framed



Gah i keep on complimenting now it sounds like I'm lying haha


Uhmm... ill prolly hop over Kris' house tomorrow and have a talk with (Te) Tihne i wonder why i call her older sister lol. Probably play some ps2 as well haha with Kristel hahah yeah I'm starting to be a kid agen haha...


I'm cheerful.

I had a chat with Sarah too, we talked about things and her guitar haha..
Zoey rang up... was prolly boring her she seemed like she was fighting with her refrigerator.

Oh well so ends a tiring day hahaha... i hope i don't vacuum tomorrow *-* NOooessz!


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Monday, 28 July 2008

Fistfuls of Hope

Second entry of the day...

Amira is a pessimist

(according to her)

From a Distant Oblivion She Steps In

listening to: the television

I woke up at 8.15am and told myself ive got 45 minutes to burn til i really get up. I got up at 9.30ish. Well its a change from the usual, i just realised how nice it is to loaf around in bed. Just buried in deep slumber, sleeping to your heart's content.

I need to finish these books... got pages to burn... then 3 more to go until i return them.

I was up till 3am today, waiting for something, looping Palchelbel's Canon on my phone felt so soothing haha i regret saying that it was boring. Anyways i heard somewhere that a minute of relaxation is equal to ten minutes sleep. I couldn't relax that much my head tried to buzz with thoughts. At least i felt calmness before i slept.

Crappers i feel like a cup of coffee...

Amira seems cheerful as usual... talking to her right now. for a girl hu's been thru alot she's fought through so well.

Naj seems depressed about something. I've slowly run out of options, talking to her doesn't seem to work, but i guess pulling back a little and giving her time and space will work out just fine. I hope it does. I really want to help but talking to her will just reopen the wounds she tried to seal up. If i do talk to her it wouldn't be online, i guess these things shouldn't be tackled online.

I care alot about her - and i mean alot - and if she's depressed it troubles me greatly.

I'm really concerned.



I'm going to vacuum the house in a bit, probably get a bite or not >.<




"It's not my job to be concerned, nor is it my duty... but I am coz its love", Reniel Tengco
<3>

Friday, 25 July 2008

Holes in Her Plastic

Annoying day all i got was an all day lecture from my dearest Mother...

Talking to Sophie...

I didn't do anything the whole day except play useless minigames online. Well whilst i was at it, came the usual routine of talking to naj for over 10 hours haha. Since we're both constantly online and we don't get bored of each other. Messed up! >.<>.<> are they aimed at me?
We still haven't talked yet. *sigh*

--> Momma venting agen... crappers
It's getting really annoying now <--

I felt emo during the evening haha i remembered her, soon forgot too lol. Haha i think im finally over it...

chords for "Wake Me Up When September Ends" sounds good on the piano i should say... I ended up playing it more than 3 times i think.

Nope i still haven't completed "Fur Elise" yet... I've got the scores on pdf somewhere here but the printer ain't working. *sighs*

I'm still thinking was my decision when i was younger to take beginner piano lessons instead of guitar a good choice or not? Oh well... live a life of no regrets.

I did weights 4 hours ago. I wrecked something whilst doing an exercise damned glass broke.

okies i think i'll try to channel my anger today into something productive haha... (uhmm is trying to wreck a walll with my fists productive? LOL?)

My blog sounds immature... this feels like a random post.

okies signing out...

funny thing. i don't really like anyone at the moment haha there are some chicks in mind but nvm!

hahaz

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Tuesday, 22 July 2008

Paper Quadrats

listening to: Sultans of Swing - Dire Straits

Got up ten-thirtyish... fixed the bed and read a couple pages. As the habit goes turn on the PC and log in my IM programs. Tried to download this song in the Filipino remake version, but all i got was a bunch of wannabes singing and acting all gangsta and crap. Crap. Get a life! I wonder when the real version is gonna be up for downloads.

Last night i head the song and it reminded me of her, coz she used to like the english version. I was gonna try and dab what i felt out by writing a song bout her, though the moment was good, it didn't really appeal to me at that moment. So i just read, i did write something about her somewhere here. Crap. All the stuff i used to write, all gone now. I used to do it all the timeduring early highschool - half fed by feelings the other half by our devotion to hiphop LOL!

listening to: Check My Swag - Chingy

Reminds me, looking back, we as a group laugh at how we used to be, though we really don't insult our musical influences. it seemed funny that we were so into it hahaha... ignoring every kind and any kind of alter genre. We used to speak in "yo!"s and "@$#%^&!"s all the time. Crap i remember my baggy shirts, bandanas, du-rags, and caps. Hey w8, i don't mean we used to wear those individually, it was more... walking round in - spaceshoes, megabaggy trousers, bigass shirts, bracelets, couple of chains, durag, cap, bandana... even elctrical tape across our faces! sometimes (to imit8 Nelly lol).

LOL haha im actually listening to hiphop now.

listening to: Missing Ur Bounce - DJ Manny

We're over that phase haha thankfully at least we appreciate all forms of music now, but sometimes you find those highschool phases amusing. I mean we sort of took it over the top, bustin' our rhymes, carrying our knives which inevitably got confiscated by the teachers haha well i didnt carry one haha "safer" lol XD
Don't get me wrong i still love hip-hop hahaha i just find the crap we did hilarious hahaha LOL!

listening to: Dangerous - Ying Yang Twins feat. Wyclef

Its taking me so long to write this I lost the mood already, Mom kept bothering me about IMing her sister-in-law every other sentence i wrote. I feel really put off now, gah everything feels dejointed now... >.<

This is really annoying now, i've spent like what? Half-an-hour on an entry.

Gah its okie Mom has important matters to discuss *innerself argues with this fact*



yeash it would rock if we both went to China haha but they don't trust us do they? especially me, hey come on i'm Renz, i won't like harm ure daughter would i? *winks* hahaha.... yeah i realised we sorta have our blogs connected in one way or the other. why don't we have one blog thats shared lol hahahha. yeash u get some stuff for ure head k?


listening to: With You - Chris Brown

Gah im forgetting this chick!

Monday, 21 July 2008

Animated Shadows

I just finshed "Without Remorse" - Tom Clancy, i read it so slowly haha i thnk i bored naj by making her wait for me lolz last nite. I'm done with it epilogue and all i kinda predicted what was gonna happen haha. The book's setting ended in the Philippines, well sorta like that.

I still havent bothered naj, read the blog entry... sure i'll come with you. Just as long as you're dad doesn't mind a guy in a hotel room with his daughter haha.

crap can't go to jam today again no transport, if only kevin lived next to me hahamyabe id get a free ride.

I'm starting "Debt of Honor" - Tom Clancy today - yeash im trying to finsh all his novels but the set i borrowed lacks one... "Executive Orders" well prolly ill get that book and keep it. Looks like a really good one anyways. So after "Debt of Honor" its "Red Rabbit" till i get "Executive Orders".

I'm feeling nerdy... hell i'll play the piano a bit later... haha... yeah i needs to clean some of my electronic devices too...


oh wellz

Saturday, 19 July 2008

Hyper Blue

Thanks guys for my Brithday greetings!

(note: the numbers don't mean anything i could have put my bestfriends last for all i cared. Rememebr the number u are in / have does not mean anything lol okay?)
  1. Mom
  2. Dad
  3. Jay C.
  4. Naj
  5. Kevin (first text)
  6. Adil
  7. Wafi
  8. Kristel (1 week nefore XD)
  9. Marvie (best message)
  10. Grandma
  11. AJ
  12. NJ
  13. Ate Sheryl
  14. Ate Sherkristine
  15. Tita Lourdess
  16. Tito Glenn
  17. Tita Alice
  18. Tito Nilo
  19. Tita Melda
  20. Tita Lina
  21. Paolo (first phonecall)
  22. Habeel
  23. Grace
  24. Racha
  25. Ahmed S.
  26. Haya
  27. Sarah (my wifey hahaha)
  28. Sarah Al-Hajeb
  29. Taha
  30. Dana Al-Salem
  31. MJB (Mary J.)
  32. Fai
  33. Hadeel
  34. Ahmed Isa
  35. Ahmed Buheijji
  36. Abdulla Ghurair (hu ever he is)
  37. Jonathan M.
  38. Kristine O.
  39. Nikki
  40. Rehanna
  41. Genevive
  42. Jhaynine
  43. Khurram
  44. Rodnie
  45. Eunicelle
  46. Kuya Larj
  47. Jayson
  48. Michael
  49. Abby (9 minutes late)
  50. Lezlie
  51. Frances
  52. Sunshine
  53. Juztine
  54. Zoey
  55. Sophie
  56. Bonn (2nd giftie)
  57. Karla
  58. Tazzy
  59. Sa'ati
  60. Miriam
  61. Mahdi
  62. Kristine St. Ana
  63. Kristel St. Ana
  64. Nada
  65. Phil. Daniel
  66. Marikit
  67. Princess
  68. Mariel
  69. Jay M.
  70. Nadine
  71. MJ
  72. Taj
  73. Tita Bing
  74. Tita Mylene
  75. Uncle Pradeep
  76. Hanan
  77. Saosie
  78. Shan Yan
  79. Robbie
  80. Maurie (did she?)
  81. Noel (did he?)
  82. Nial (through Paolo I think)
  83. Majid (same with Nial)
  84. Khalid (Kal)
  85. Amira (i remembered whilst writing the PS note hhaha)
  86. Salma

THANK YOU to ALL OF YOU



P.S. Special Note: If i have forgotten anybody I am super sorry... i feel like i did.
GAH hu else? IM, Email, Comment of FS or FB, Comment here so i can add your name
kkz?

To the unknownz

Thank You!

Thank You Jesus for another year.
Love You Guys!

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Thursday, 17 July 2008

Lycopene is an Anti-Oxidant!

Gah its my birthday today haha!!!

thats a happy gah if there is one haha


well the first hour of my bday was sad mom made me feel bad haha but we made peace... its so nice being a new age agen.

Ill just forget wat happened and when i wake up remnants of the sadness will surely be gone haha...

im trying to ignore the evnt though me and my mom are at peace now, hahaha still stings a bit but it was trivial. Ill forget about it. GAH just forget about it Renz!


yay!!! Thank You Lord for giving me another year in my life hopefully this year i'd do soething more productive for You Lord and for everyone haha.

its 1.23 am


gonna prolly get up at 10ish haha

we gonna hang later then get home to rentz haha

i'm gonna enjoy this day haha



najnaj! u enjoy ure day too haha! lol


maybe tomorrow ill make a list of thank yous if i remember haha lol

Wednesday, 16 July 2008

Hydrogen Bonds

I'm really annoyed right now.

If my dad wants to continue acting like this. I don't care anymore.
This house feels unhappy. It is unhappy, the constant screaming and fights, lack of understanding between all of us. I get along with them but sometimes they don't get along with each other, and sometimes we all don't get along with each other. I can see no respect seomtimes.

One painful thing: its my birthday tomorrow.

I wake up... after 5 mins or less someone is venting at me. What was it today? Waterheater?

Coming back home all i can see is anger next to me, in the driver's seat.



Sometimes u really get sick of it.

I don't want to go to any details,

I'm really sick of it.



Somehow writing this makes me feel guilty.

If only the world was a simple place maybe they could just make peace. But its not.


Maybe if anger could be held, and less words said. This won't happen. What a childish thought! It won't.



Prolly if i just ignore it maybe it will help things, coz understanding is not working anymore. Good thing i'm somewhat nonchalant about it. I've already gone through this last time. I'll go through it again. I'm quite emotionally stable, i hope it retains.


i don't want to write anymore. that'll be all for now. i'll get back to reading, it's still early.


God will help me.

Gah im becoming emo. Nooooooooo! haha

>_< buzz or nudge if ure ol

Saturday, 12 July 2008

Monster

uhmm Church today.

i think Naj is finally okay. Gah how much i care nowadays haha.


* * *

I didn't go shopping with the rest decided on going home after Youth Class, we went to Bahrain Mall, was with my rents. There were a couple of chicks here and there, i was surprised to get home and find Zoey telling me that her friend saw me hahaha. Wow seemed like everyone knew where i was. There was this hot German chick next to the apples and i kinda messed up, coz mom was dropping apples into the bag i was holding and i bloody dropped the bag. I had in-ear earphones on and my mom screamed at me and i couldn't hear her, and the chick just stared with her mom apparently, hilarious... haha.

* * *

i kinda think my blog is full of crap nowadays. I just write whatever comes into mind, and i find it rather annoying. I kinda expect everything i write to be something of "literary art" even though i know it isnt mostly. at least i've got one way of ending my day haha.

* * *

I've been doing nothing productive. Self motivation is coming rather hard when all you want to do is stay in bed and sleep. It's rather annoying - i've got so much time in my hands for me to spend. I have to spend it haha but i'm not spending it wisely. I want to go back to learning the piano but i feel really impatient plus my printer is disobedient xD doesnt want to print --> thus i can't print out the pdf music sheets i have. I play mostly chords now, it sometimes feels dull.

* * *

Everyone found out about my lil secret haha so i guess its not a secret anymore.

* * *

You wanted to know. I felt mad at him - enraged that he had to make u feel that way. If you didn't love him it isn't your fault and i felt like he was making u feel guilt. if he's changed because of you. That's his own problem to fix... not yours. Even though you might have caused him to become what he is now. Don't blame yourself for his soreness and biterness, he isn't being a man towards u if he's acting like that. he should learn to accept the fact that you don't love him or see him that way. if he's mad about it he has no right to make you feel shamed and down just so he can have a lil revenge. You not loving him back is besides the point of him being selfish towards you. You not loving him back is besides the point of him being rude towards you. You not loving him back is besides the point of him of him being a total jerk...

don't let your precious tears fall for issues like this, it isn't worth it.

it was never your fault...




You were true to yourself.




Friday, 11 July 2008

Into the Layers of Glass

yeah!

LOL

too much caffeine in my system

i slept at i think 5... inet.. book... PSP

haha then thoughts... kept me awake for about an hour until saw sunlight through the curtains... zzz

i got up, switched off the alarm and dozed off i dint even know it was my fone's alarm... paolo woke me up finally at 12ish, i thought it was still an alarm but then it turned out to be a call and i was like "hello!!!" haha messed up *thanks mom for pointing out that i had a call haha*

got lunch, shower.. went to Paolo's... xbox, ps2, beat up Nasser, met up with Habeel, Nial and Majid came, went to Seef... (saw this Korean chick hmm if only nvm too late for that haha prolly older than me as well) left early ran some errands for my Mom.


* * *

I feel bad. Because she feels bad.
He made her feel bad. Although im not really blaming anyone (i feel like i am), i still think that she shouldn't feel that way. She doesn't deserve it. I feel confused as well.

She shouldn't keep it in. It's not healthy, in time it might destroy her. I'm really scared of that. she's become really special to me. She should let it out one day, all that pain and grief that she's keeping inside, one day she needs to tell herself to break that dam. It's been awfully dry on one side for far too long and a few bursts of water every now and then will never remove the dryness.

It's always what a person should or shouldn't do, empathy? do i still have that? i think i do. But it's becoming really harsh for her. She doesn't need or deserve this.


* * *

At least Sao cheered me up tonight. I wasn't really sad, more like annoyed... I've been having a good day and then this happens. I'll be there for her.

I've got other things in my mind too. I want to wriye more but its 3am i should call it a day.

God loves you Naj

...


Tuesday, 8 July 2008

Cotton Shrapnel

I was kidding haha i dint steal the photos.

Monday, 7 July 2008

Corrugated Plastic

we broke up today... (i seem amused) haha another to add to the list... how long did our relationship last?

a rather short period of time

another fling ends... haha


* * *

I did nothing today. Shoulders and triceps hurt from yesterday. I wonder if i ate a banana now and then, the potassium will help solve the cramps. My friend takes creatine but he's really i to this crap... haha. Maybe next year when i do get a gym membership i'll consider protein shakes haha. but im not planning to overdo working out xD. I need a new set of dumbells... *thinks*
Gyms are too far from my place.


* * *

i've got stuff in my mind...



well im pretty much done with today at the PC...
ill plug my psp (i wanna play SOCOM! lol) and phone and its off to do some reading...


Striped Socks

listening to: a commercial on cooking
















ahh 2 years ago i think this was the day we were supposed to go to the psb prom haha it was raining that day so since Bahrain seems a desert we seem to get carried away...






























We bring new meaning to pimping, wen we have our class pimped out too. Check out our fishtank... courtesy of Ahmed B. and Khalid
(Ahmed B. caught in the pic xD)


















after the prom we went to school tired those guys from dat school get a holiday we don't. AnAccounting class seems like it wasn't only the three of us who were tired Grace and Racha seem wasted. Aww Sara always smiling...
















as i sed earlier Bahrain is a desert island. So look what happens wen we experience a light shower. from the left... Hadeel, Noura, Fai, Paolo, Sara, Racha, Grace, Hanan, Haya, Me, Ahmed Isa, Habeel, Rami, Ahmed B.


















Paolo thought he could fool everybody with his house of cards but look closely at the picture.





I MISS THOSE DAYS HAHA (Racha took the pic in this one) OH THE MEMORIES!!!
HAHA

Translucent Screens

listening to: the airconditioning, and the tapping of my fingers on the keyboard

My neck hurts. I was playing SOCOM on my PSP. Good game, il prolly get it next week or so. It was so-so today nothing much happened. Im in a "fling" haha but nothing seems to have changed, i wonder hu's gonna dump hu? I'm having a problem with the italics right now. They keep coming when I don't want them to come.

after writing this ill probably make myself a list of what to do, everyday for the whole time im off school. it's going to be a long list. i hope i do everything that i put down.

i'm a bit worried on the layoff i have; since the British system and the American system don't finish at the same time. i found myself finishing "so-called" highschool, at the same time that college in Philippines has already started. It's a bit annoying now coz i don't think they'll let me catch up on a second semester. Thus, i have to wait till the next school year. Now that's what i don't like. Coz prolly the next college year back in the Philly willl start on March 2009. That's about 8 months in hibernation mode. I don't like the looks of it, i wanna go do someting constructive, but if i go back to the same school and continue with my a-levels, il have to pull out early not to mention costs and things of starting something u won't finish. I don't really think there are good British Schools in the Philippines since if there were any good popular ones i'd probably known them by now.

i have two more options:
  1. opting for a scholarship in the States but thats going to be extremly difficult to set up, but i really wouldn't mind the hassle if i end up in an Ivy-League institution. there's just depression to combat, id be extremely bummed out, depressed. i can predict it, missing my family and my friends.
  2. staying here in Bahrain. Cons: education is not of the highest quality here in Bahrain and it is rather costly, i still wouldn't mind since i won't be leaving anyone behind. I'll be with my family and friends. I'l probably do International Arts/Studies or Business Informatics - (but I'll be missing out on the various course opportunities in the Philly)

* * *

i'm really worried about my marks that are going to come in, i could have done better in all my subjects. there's the retake option but i don't want to opt for that. i really worked on my business studies so im expecting something out of that. The science fiasco is what's troubling me quite a bit. i didn't work up to my own expectations! i asked if i could be withdrawn (coz i didn't feel ready) and have my exam scheduled on the november dates, then the day of the test came... i - since knowing that i was withdrawn from the sciences - considered science out my revision list. i got a phone call that morning saying that i have to come to school to do the test. i didnt even study properly for that knowing that i had been allowed to have it on the november dates. so i did it anyways. its okay though i didn't pay for it hahaha.


I feel a bit wasted. i want to do something productive. i'm trying the piano agen but my fur elise hasnt even reached the middle yet, im trying to polish myself up as u myt say. i feel like i need to do something to sharpen my mind, i wanna go to school agen. last school year's work ethic among our class was almost nil. really troubling. those days i didn't think class felt like class sometimes.

i'm going to start on that list now. w8 lemme proofread this. *reads*

there done no more typos... i hope i go to jam tomorrow i mean later its 1 now haha...

so now i start my list... let's see... finish these books... *voice trails away* haha

Sunday, 6 July 2008

Is it aluminium?

HAHA im in a good mood... that's it imma copy naj hha

listening to: Feel Good Inc - Gorrilaz

im glad its fixed.

"did i do anything wrong?"
"no"
"did i do anything right?"
"i don't know"

is it gonna come back to normal?

looking back,
I can't believe something so trivial escalated. Do i regret what i wrote? i don't really think so coz if i did i wouldn't be true to what i said. i might think that some of the anger was stupid but was it?


* * *

an experimental teenager... wanting to try everything he finally has regrets losing her but now he doesnt know if he can do anything to get her back. but does he want her back? constant doubts flooded his mind... thinking, observing... in the distance.
they told him to try and get over but he kept a small watch.

wen he dint want to get over, he did.
wen he did, he didn't want to.

pretty messed up.

Friday, 4 July 2008

Psychedelic White Shadows

Stupid.

Plain stupid.

Now i get what happens when false assumptions supported by a deficiency in evidence causes. I've about had it now. Paranoia. Stupid paranoia.

I really don't care. I've spent 4 years trying to prove myself to the world and i don't need your opinion. I'm not your enemy but how did you become mine?

Did all of you bother loooking at the other side? No.

You don't know what happened.

I don't want to fight anymore but if you have something against me rub it in my face. I'll be thankful.



Peace?

Hope?

It's up to you. If you didn't bother before.
Why bother now?

Patch things up?

You don't know.

Thursday, 3 July 2008

Sautee w/o the accent

i woke up late today... *sigh* was talking to Sao and Wafi till 3am... well wafi was useless to talk to... playing mgs the whole time... i think we're wasting our lives haha... but a week of slumber, loafing and relaxation won't kill you right?
haha

i hope we watch that robot movie on saturday haha i was really looking forward to it for like a month now...

yesterday was kinda crappy for me, yes we both succesfully completed the 13 hour marathon without getting bored of each other. (yes i dint get bored of you haaha) well i felt bad during the middle of the conversation wen i gave her a lecture, and i felt worse wen i found out i made her cry. i didn't mean to break her dam down but i just happened to. maybe it was meant to happen, but that thought just makes me feel worse. she has depression and i cant help her. i guess the only thing i can do is be there for her. (yeash im here haha)

agenda today?

prollylunch in a while... weights, crunches, internet... the usual stuff

Church tomorrow, and then Saturday

really anxious...

Wednesday, 2 July 2008

No Yeast

yay! haha woke up earlier than 1 set the alarm for 10 but i napped till 11

a drag getting up, i think we're doing the marathon today hahaha

oh no 12 hours haha

seems like an okay day... breakfast --> well brunch was good

i have no plans yet... i wanna pass over Paolo's house coz my hard drive is with him...

ill do it Friday prolly after Church...

i hope he keeps it safe haha

mw is annoying now coz im far ahead than her and she's mad everytime she finds out... hehe babyish! hahaha

i seem to be in a good mood today. haha

laterz

Tuesday, 1 July 2008

Timon

im alone... haha on msn i mean

well im just chatting with Wafi atm and ill prolly log out... soon hehe i never do logout soon haha

i just checked for college scholarships in the US... i must aim high haha as they all say...

i guess if i don't get a scholarship in the US i have to settle for Uni... in the Philly back home...

im just wondering how i'll survive being away from family and friends... this sucks but its a sacrifice i have to make, and my friends will always be there...
im growing old too fast... time is too fast as well... after being told off by Taj i decided to visit that website offering scholarships and i have to update some parts of my profile later wen i get up...

i think me and Najy are gonna have a im marathon tomorrow haha lets c how long it lasts today was 5 hours i think lol... im looking forward...

i need to find time to get that dumbell seti need new weights (another advice from Taj haha)...

mobwars on facebook is addicting... haha i added this dude from the forum.. he prolly spread the word i had 3 more requests later haha...

m bored... i miss Naj haha i want to have some retarded conversation rite now haha

im looking forward to Saturday... i hope... gah

stop thinking bout it haha...

nytnyt
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Polo

this sux i get up and have this really crazy dream which is half disgusting and i switch on my pc, get my teeth brushed, then walk back in.
as usual as the habit goes log in into both my messengers and checkout my facebook and read her blog. it became a tradition for me now. guess what i got a paragraph about me today in her blog. but im not happy bout it she feels bad and now so do i a bit. i think i did grow attached to her now hahaha...

well she has bigger problems than that and i cant really help... it sux and she has to deal with me and her#2 (im not mentioning names today)... *sigh* i hope it ends on saturday girl i just hope it does. she has to understand me coz i dont get her, from the way i see it, she has already made assumptions from little evidence she has. but i cant blame her id do the same thing but im not a girl so i still wouldnt knw.

if u only knew wat i felt that dat friday u started getting pissed at me.

thank girl for being there hahaha.... i know ure reading this...


workout at four for me im not gonna rot in my holidays...